Okay, I'm almost back to normal. I'm quickly realizing that I have nothing to complain about. Yes, my job sucks but I'm leaving in just over a month for 25 days in Paris and a new job (hopefully) when I return. Additionally, let's not forget that I also have a proper office job where I enjoy working, although I'm only there about five hours per week.
But, more importantly, my depression and homesickness is not really about my job. It's really more about my old one, which was more than just a job but something I truly enjoyed and was good at and something I miss, plus just general mourning, which goes along with any life change, and maybe a bit of bipolar disorder (self-diagnosed), the days are getting darker, colder, and shorter.
To help combat these challenges I've started attending Pilates classes on Monday evenings and I'll look into fencing classes when we return from Paris. Speaking of Paris, we've also added Dublin, Italy, and London to our calendar, all trips that would take us years to accomplish if we still lived in the States.
Living in Scotland, although not as exciting as I had envisioned, is still amazing and enlightening. It's too soon to say if I've learned anything or changed as a person but I have great expectations for my personal growth throughout this journey. Hopefully this initial downturn is just growing pains and I'll come through it stronger and wiser, ready for the next challenge this adventure throws at me.
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